you say you don’t wanna hurt me. little do you know that hearing you say you don’t wanna be with anyone is breaking my heart.

now what?

who are you?
why did you come into my life?
you don’t want to be held down, but you want companionship.
how do I know you are faithful to me when I’m too afraid to ask?
I’m into you. you appear to be into me.
so where do we go from here?

I don’t know anymore
I’m so lost in my mind

why is it you come into my life when I am most happy? I love myself. I’m happy. but after feeling this happiness for a few weeks, you pop into my life and bring me down. you make me hurt myself. you make my depressed. and I allow you to do it. I aid you to do it. I allow you to control me and I get hurt in the process.

please don’t hurt me too badly this time around. I don’t want you to control me fully. just aid me in working with you.

love/hate,
jo

I am on day 5 of my juice feast, and I have lost 4lbs since starting.